I would say I am an ordinary person having an extraordinary experience. At least that is what I thought of myself. I did for many years bury my true spirit somewhere along the line to meet the expectations of society. Don't we all do this? Don't we all try to be ordinary? Maybe ordinary is not a good word. Don't we all try to fit in? Don't we all want to be accepted and respected? What would happen if we stuck out? In my case, I resist my true self for the sake of someone elses love. I would do anything to be loved.
Growing up in Foster Care put me at the mercy of other people for this birth right. Being taught in a Catholic school also had its expectations. So life went on and I worked really, really, really hard to fit in. I was a perfectionist and a high achiever when it came to demonstrating that I was an ideal Canadian citizen. I was a dancer, school teacher, house owner, mother, wife and basically a really nice person. I had many friends. I won awards for dancing. I won awards for teaching. My husband loved me and our two boys were well behaved participating in the popular Canadian past time-Hockey. Wow, I turned out pretty good!
Only I wasn't happy. In fact, I was miserable. I felt lost and so the search began. What was it I was looking for? Where would I start? Who was I? Why am I even here? It started quite simply with a prayer. Actually, that is not true. The prayer did not come about that easily. I was at a point in my life where I was desperate. I wanted to fade away. I did not want to walk this path anymore. My existence was not as wonderful as I was letting on. My husband and I were constantly battling with each other. We lost respect for one another and it was obvious that our relationship had come to an end. I stayed in this situation for a very long time because I just did not want to fail.
To keep myself occupied and in denial I began to study Shamanism. The study of Shamanism fit well with my Aboriginal heritage and my job as an Aboriginal Consultant for my school district. After a year of study, my health began to deteriorate. My doctor was very concerned and asked an important question: "What the hell was going on in my life? Why was my body showing signs of extreme stress?" Soon after this I found out that the Shaman teacher was performing energy vampirism on me. I never heard of such a thing. I was left devastated. I felt so betrayed. Physically, I was very weak. When I pulled myself from her class, all hell broke loose and I could feel the attacks continue with greater intensity. A few days later, I had a fight with my husband (one of many). I found myself weeping in the bathtub. Suddenly, I could feel my energy draining away and I started to slip under the water. It scared me like nothing before, but I was helpless to what was happening. This is when I began to pray. I remember the prayer. It went something like this: "Dear God, I am at your mercy and I will do anything, anything you ask of me if you just let me live. I will do what ever you want if you just let me live." Within seconds after the prayer my energy started to return. In fact, I was filled with so much power that I felt more alive that day, than I ever had.
This was the beginning of my path back to myself, to serve God. My journey to who Angela is has been nothing short of amazing. It has had many twist and turns and the Spirit World was always there for me when I needed them. They still are. I finally realized that many of my lifes "bumps and bruises" was because I was breaking the patterns of Kharma. The Universe walked my life through my own Rites of Passage that cleared the slate.
Now I walk in Freedom. A life of no fear! Along the way many of my gifts were revealed. Today I am now learning to be my own Master. This is the next step. I am strengthing my connection with my Higher Self and go directly to her for Wisdom. Learning we are one with God and Mother Earth. Both are our support and foundation.
I now know the answer to those questions mentioned earlier. Simply, I am here to love. I am here to love in the way I love to love. For me it is the arts. I love to share God's love through the arts (visual, music, poetry, dance, drama). In hindsight, I recant those words of being ordinary. I don't believe any of us are ordinary. We are all a reflection of God and an extension of God. Truly we are beyond anything imaginable. To date, I let go and let God take over. I am here to do what I love to do and share it with the people that God brings to me. I am truly grateful.
My Biography is simple:
Angela Hall was born from the light of God. She has served God since the beginning of time. Sometimes she thought she was lost and helpless. This is not true, she has always served God, at those times she was simply building a foundation that demonstrates God's hope for everyone. Angela continues to serve God and God has always served her.
In love and with love,
Note: I sign my art work Aguenus. This was the name given to me when I asked the universe, Who Am I? I have since learned that it means water and earth. Therefore, my gift is to bring the reflection of heaven to the earth. My paintings and poetry are a reflection of our Godly essence.
ONE WHO KNOWS
When I asked Creator, "How Do I Serve You?" This was the vision I recieved.
One Who Knows
Child of God.
Daughter of the Earth.
You have moved silently among us.
Your song is the voice of many.
To hear you sing is to listen to life.
The heartbeat of the people is your rhythmn.
Reaching for heaven,
You allow the earth to pull you near.
Bringing life to stillness and peace to choas,
We are forever changed.
Your sacrafice was to learn among us.
To walk our walk.
To cry our tears.
To hold our joys.
It is through this embrace,
That two worlds are met,
And the power of one,
Is the strength of many.
Aguenus, December 20 2009
REFLECTION ON THIS VISION
This vision is very special to me, but at no point do I feel that I am the one who is special. In fact, I believe that this vision is a message for all people. I am quite certain that the world as we know it is coming to an end and soon we will witness the strength of the female take her rightful place.
This is the rising of Christ Conciousness. Opposite of two thousand years ago, we are witnessing this energy move through a collective of our intuitive female nature as opposed to one man. Where Jesus' life was ending (age 33), many people are awakening to a new way of life.
There are many prophecies on this transition. According to the Cree First Nations of Canada: We are leaving the time of the Bear and moving into the time of the Buffalo. The Bear is a masculine energy that carries individuality and the Buffalo is a feminine energy that carries communality.
We are currently witnessing the rise of honoring our feminity. Too by more women taking leadership roles, balance will be restored to the earth and humanity, with love and tenderness.
Today Angela teaches in the Foothills of Alberta, Canada. She is the Primary Teacher for Kisiko Awasis School. The school serves the unique Traditional Cree Camp Community called Mountain Cree. The people of Mountain Cree too have a Vision and a Mission. Removed from the influences of modern society (leaving the reservation) and guided by the Spirit World they carry on the old ways. Angela knows it is a honor and a blessing to be apart of this Sacred Community.
Presently, Angela is developing meditation techniques for children and continues to paint the Visions she is recieving.
We are never too far behind ourselves,
From who we are...from who we are becoming.
It is our inheritance.
The true work of art is but a shadow of the divine perfection